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( Behind cut since its going to be stuck at the top of my LJ )

The store opened at 6am today so I took the opportunity to buy the bunny ornament I love and a pickle of my own. I'm on my own now. Gotta decorate my own tree. T-T Well I joined a trade on a forum and got one today and counting the one I made for myself I now have......4 ornaments. Also, I don't have a tree.

Going to Hancock Fabrics on Monday so I can make me a coat! I found some nice black wool coating online. Shopping for fabric online for this coat made me realize why I have this long growing hatred for Joann FABRICS. If you want to make something out of real fabric, they can't help you. Yes I buy things there, scrap fabrics mostly. They have the occasional nice brocade or what have you but they don't even carry wool anything. And I was trying to figure out what to do about fur because they only have cheap fake furs. At least the rabbit faux I'm looking at doesn't seem ready to come to bits when you cut it. If its what I'm thinking it is I'm gonna have a sweeeeet coat. Also Hancock has the 58" bolts. Happiness! Now to find my pattern.

Tiny things....



( And now for dollies photos~ )

I really like this coat and this coat, but they're gonna run like $200 after shipping and I'm on a pretty tight budget. Any ideas where to get a cheaper version?

I also like this punk coat and I know that matches my style more, but I can't wear it with everything like the other ones. I just need money so I don't have to pick.

Seek called this morning and I was too tired to answer and I forgot about it until later when they called again, but my phone didn't ring so I got a random voicemail later after they were closed. They want me back at the factory tomorrow. Ok....I'll call in the morning if I think I can make it then and see if they still want me. Only....I get a call just now that they canceled it so they don't need me actually now.........yeah I don't think this is gonna work out....

Well....Seek was indeed a waste of time it seems. Two days and the end. I MAY be able to go back to that factory about the 25th, but no guarantees. And I talked to the lady about getting something else, but no. They don't have anything part time. Good lord. What was the point of this again?

And after going in and telling Kohls I couldn't work tonight and then last night having a talk with the night manager about it and the entire shift talking about who could replace me, they call and ask where I'm at. Uh, home? What else does 'I can't work Weds night' mean? I should have just gone in with all this retarded work drama.

Fuck you life!

I am so tired already from this...There is no way I can work both. I only get 4 hours of sleep at a time and that's pretty much all I do at home. I also just ate for the first time in like 24 hours, but was so tired I couldn't make anything to eat when I got home before. They called me tonight to tell me the factory is doing maintenance so I don't need to go in tomorrow and I nearly cried with joy. sleeeeeep. I'm gonna ask them if I can get a part time job instead of going back there on Thursday. There's no way I can do both of these with no sleep.

So that job. Its pretty easy. I mostly just watched the most inefficient assembly line waste all sorts of Mary Kay facial cleaner pads. True story.

http://www.marykay.com/skincare/cleansers/Cleansers/10016457/default.aspx

That's what I made. And by made I mean the stacks of them came down the conveyor and if they made it to me without falling off I smashed 'em down into a straighter pile to get packaged up a little farther on. The machine was broke a good chunk of the day too, but time went pretty fast anyway. Tomorrow starts the real test. I'll let you all know how that goes whenever I get around to getting online again >_>

I'm gonna be gone for a long time. I'm gonna try to talk to them and change my availability again already to only work Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday then I can take a short nap after work most days, but then sleep 5 hours on my nights off too. And have all day Sunday to sleep cause I think this new job doesn't work Sunday, but I don't know. I'm really stressed out about this whole thing...and this week I have 3 days in a row...I hate everything...This whole thing is stressing me out. Why do I care so much about making Kohls happy? They don't really worry much about making me happy...I'm gonna go try not to cry some more...

Well...I went to the temp place that had an ad in the paper. I had to go there anyway , but they had an open thing until like 3. Well I went in and did paperwork and stuff in general more than for just this job since I wanted any job and not just this one. So the lady interviewed me after and told me that if they didn't call by Tuesday to call them. Then she's walking me to the door and she says 'Wait!' Turns to talk to this other lady and turns back to me and goes 'Want a job that starts Monday?' I hate being put on the spot like that, but 'ok?' So I take the first shift opening because that way I can come home from Kohls, shower fast and leave and get to my other job at 7am -_- and work until 3pm and then sleep and wake up about 8pm to go to Kohls again. Sweet. I'm going to put in a new availability at Kohls to only work every other day as much as possible. I'd rather not work like 4 days in a row on 4 hours of sleep.

I hate my life, but they don't know how long term this job is and I want a Cintiq and I need to save money and this factory is only like $8 an hour...and I don't know about benefits....I'm gonna go cry and have another panic attack.

Oh humans. Teenage girls especially. I really want to just go off on a few of them and get rid of some of my accumulating rage. Apparently Kiro and Ricky Twittering to each other random 'OMG I LOVE YOUUUU's and Yu writing stuff to Dolly on his Twitter is over the top and fake....And Romeo is being accused of sending too much love @someone too.

Get over yourselves, girls. Like your Twitter/MyFace/SpaceBook isn't full of all caps and net speak love declarations to all your BFFs and current obsession and person you just met an hour ago. Its normal to write retarded things to the people you love most. I know its all about jealousy that those things aren't @you, but too bad. The only difference between them doing it and you doing it is NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU. Fucking special snowflakes.

People like this make me embarrassed to be a fan.

Not really....Kiro's Twitter is KiroCullen and I still admit he's my favorite band member.



I have more rage I'd love to rant about, but I need to shower and work was pretty grah and I'm supposed to be getting up early to apply for a crappy factory job with shitty pay. Maybe it'll work with my Kohls job if I get it. Crappy pay/crappy hours + shitty pay/better hours = ok money.



Also also, I need to know what's going down for New Years soon. I'm taking off the 3rd to something about 5 days later so I can go see my family and I need to know if I should be requesting off the new year and budgeting more for my vacation.

And zilla! when do you have off and will you be home at all that week?

Oh Rammstein. http://www.exclaim.ca/articles/generalarticlesynopsfullart.aspx?csid1=137&csid2=844&fid1=42051

Also American Girl made a new doll. http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2009/09/26/earlyshow/saturday/main5343132.shtml No I don't want it, she's just getting a LOT of attention.

It was a long night. It starts off with 'oh by the way, Monday's truck is canceled and these people don't have to come in'. Guess which list I'm on. Yeah. So I have ONE day next week. Swell.

I'd really like to know what it is I do that makes no one trust me. No one listens to me, thinks I can do my job, gives me a chance, nothing. Is it me? Maybe I'm just an unlikable person. Or forgettable.

So long night wore on and I really wanted to cry for about the first half. Then I sort of moved on to the apathy stage. I just really hate this place. Kohls is nothing but shit for me. Like Toys R Us....and GM....and Fashion Bug....and every other job I've ever had. I'm glad everyone else enjoys their lives. Enjoy them a bit for me.

I'm going to try this temp place. I'm not holding my breath since I went through 3 such places back home and got a grand total of one job. And that was the one that bruised my hands and told me to STFU or GTFO.

So I'm considering a credit card to buy a Cintiq and then I just won't eat anymore to make the minimum monthly payment. I can live on tea and Pepsi. Caffeine is my nicotine. I hate my art and so does everybody else. I haven't liked my computer art since that week with Super Tablet. The tablet I have now is shit. I deal with it, but I can't get what I want with it. It was $150 and at the time it worked for me. Now, not so much. Even if nobody else does *I* want to like my art. I can only do so much with a pencil. And I want to animate again. I miss it.

So anybody recommend a credit card? How's Capital One feel to people?